so curious...

do u know that I hate this feeling so much????
I really want to know about it, but I can't ask u...
I can't be that selfish any longer....
I should make sure about that thing before made u think about it....

God, show me what's this real meaning...
I always confuse about this feeling...
and never had the answer before...
why don't u just give me the answer this time???
I really don't want to make him disappointed after all....
and I really don't want to break the friendship we had before....

I must be more carefully than before...
I don't want to make the same mistake anymore...